Changes... and a sudden need to write.

Something inside me is shifting. 

I am growing and changing daily. 

Metamorphosis:

1. A transformation, as by magic or sorcery.

2. A marked change in appearance, character, condition, or function.

 

 

That is the nature of my life, for the time being. I am transforming. All of this is of course by the laws of nature, in so far as we are all changing, always. It is also because of my training and education that I began undertaking in August of last year. The second semester of this schooling has just begun. I am in awe of the volume of information that we are given, and even more so at the way we continue to take that information and run with it. 

 

I am an actor. I am an artist. I create in a variety of mediums, but my primary means of creation and story telling and catharsis is acting and dance. My body, my voice, my mind, my heart, and my soul are my tools/instrument. 

 

The gift of acting is truly incredible. That I am compelled to do this by something deep inside of me is a source of wonderment and bewilderment. It is also the only way I think I could do this. It is so very hard. 

 

Not hard in that the actual task is difficult for me, but in the vulnerability it demands while simultaneously requiring tremendous strength. We are mad as hatters. We willfully choose to delve deep into the human condition. Where so many people turn to run from the complexity of emotions and the hows and whys of human feeling, all of it, even the pain, we dive in and wade around in it trying to figure out the hows and whys and wherefores. Then we willingly put ourselves out there in front of the audience to say, "Here. Look. Consider this. Enjoy this. Hate this. Feel something." We can be, when we respect the potential of the craft, bearers of light and shadow. We touch people through the gift of empathy. 

 

My Styles teacher, a wonderful woman that I adore and respect already, argued how absolutely vital our craft is and the necessary gift we provide the world. I have to agree. 

 

I know there is a lot of entertainment available out there, and a lot of movie acting in particular has become the sort of thing that would make many question this. In an industry where there has come to be a prevalence of "personalities" and "faces" that are simply used over again and made famous and wealthy for it, I think some of the respect for acting has faded. The essence of the craft remains, however, and there are some truly wonderful artists in the world. I intend to be one of them.

 

These are things that we have been discussing a bit at school, and my own thoughts and take on things. We are exploring comedy this semester. This focus is saved for the second semester because it really is more difficult than drama. The level of commitment and focus and the stakes of absolutely everything have to be so much higher. The honesty even more so. Otherwise it won't work. 

 

In beginning the journey here, I have had so many thoughts and feelings. There's also so much wonderful information to be had. I think I finally found the spark I needed to start writing again, and actually do something with this blog that I have had sitting on the back burner for ages. 

 

I don't know that anyone will read this. I don't know that it matters. I simply needed to put some words and love and light into the universe. We'll see what more comes along in the future. 

 

Blessings and Light.